And I understand. I understand why people hold hands: I’d always thought it was about possessiveness, saying ‘This is mine’. But it’s about maintaining contact. It is about speaking without words. It is about “I want you with me” and “don’t go”.
I remember when we were cuddling and I was holding you very tight and my arm started to get numb because it was underneath you. but I didn’t seem to mind. I didn’t move. I didn’t say a word. I didn’t want to pull away from you or from that moment. I didn’t care if my whole body started to feel numb because you were the first person that made me feel something.